Whether you turn to the right or to the left,
Your ears will hear a Voice behind you, saying,
“This is the way; walk in it”
When you suddenly find yourself walking an uncertain and scary path, the tendency is to immediately try and find out all you can about what’s up ahead. At the beginning of treatment, we had so many questions that no one seemed willing to answer:
When will it get easier?
Is this the hardest part of the treatment program?
Will our child feel this sick all the time during treatment?
Is the next phase of treatment easier?
Will life return to normal when we reach maintenance phase?
How likely is my child to be re-hospitalized during the next several years of treatment?
Just be straight with us and tell us what to expect!!!
The problem with this line of thinking is that when it comes to treating leukemia, there are no solid answers to these questions. The journey is a little different for everyone. Some children make it through treatment without ever being re-hospitalized. Some end up in the hospital numerous times with fevers from colds and flu. The initial induction phase is often one of the hardest parts, but if your child is re-hospitalized with a blood infection, that can be equally stressful. The delayed intensification phase has some tough stretches of daily IV chemo and steroids, but that’s not quite the same as a whole month straight of steroids like induction. So is that considered “easier”?
The best advice we received was “don’t try and figure this out too far ahead”. You will be robbed of the good day you are having today if you spend the time worrying about tomorrow — and what your’re worrying about may never happen. Just because something was hard for one child, doesn’t mean the same thing will happen to yours. That’s why medical staff are very vague when asked specific questions about the future. They don’t want to frighten patients with stories about every possible problem that might arise. No one can make any promises about what will happen, and no one wants to tell you something that might not turn out as they said it would.
By definition, faith is walking with God one step at a time. Cancer will likely be one of the biggest tests in trusting God that you’ve ever known. This much you can know. His voice will be behind you whispering in your ear every step of the way,
“This is the way. Walk in it.”